Thursday, 25 January 2007

alternate parts of my brain?!

The part of my brain I am in is not pleasant. It is kindof shaky, hyper and a little neurotic.
Today was intense! So very friggin intense!

Our lab this morning was 3 hours packed with enough information to fill a 6 hour time slot. It was all about head immobilization, collaring, keds, backboards, log rolls, rapid extracation, removal of helmets, removal from cars... urg. does the list end?

With all that, we have also crammed in our mushy brains dermatomes, neuro assessments, palpation, spinal injuries and their common signs and symptoms. And so on...

Next week then for me consists of 2 tests on Monday, 1 test on Wed (i am pretty sure), 1 test thursday (practical) and 1 test friday (practical). The week after I have a huge med-trauma test on the MOnday at 8am.
And I am not as focused as I should be, or maybe I have been just worn down.
Oh and Tuesday I have a doc apointment.

Wow... intense.
I should go eat and study.

Thursday, 18 January 2007

past, present and future tests...

Ya, it sounds like the Mental Health Act and those are actually tests... but this has more to do with looking at who i was when i started say highschool...
I ran into an old buddy of mine tonight, haven't seen him in a couple years. It was nice. I remember meeting him at Camp, and at the age of 14/15 I was akward, nerdy and really didn't see myself as anyone special. I was never part of the "popular" group, in 7/8 grade was bullied by a couple of girls in my grade and was nicknamed "chest board" by the boys... so on. WHen I started at Camp - I dated Mike. He was cute, actually really cute. I determined he was actually way out of my league. Where I came up with this idea I dunno. :P
Either way... that is how it all started and eventually I developed some of the best friendships ever. I realize now how important they were and actually how much more I do like myself, and that hanging out with an old friend I realize that I don't need to feel insecure, I can talk to anyone and it is nice to meet up with people you can pick up with and feel that not much has changed. :) It's cool.
So that is me tonight. Looking at what was, what is and why I can be proud and confident in my future. It is kindof a relief... :)

Tuesday, 16 January 2007

box of toothpicks, valium and speed

I am so tired...
Maybe it is cause it has become really winter all of a sudden with a newly laid foot of snow, temps dipping down into the -20's C over night and the chaos of my semester bombarding me.

I'm giving in.
It is bed time.
Bio can wait - tho I am convinced I know nothing.
Feeling like I did in University...


Gonna have to get my feet back under me.
Off to find them.

Monday, 8 January 2007

super hero... does this work?

Your results:
You are Robin

Wonder Woman
Iron Man
Green Lantern
The Flash
Young and acrobatic.
You don't mind stepping aside
to give someone else glory.

Click here to take the "Which Superhero are you?" quiz...

Friday, 5 January 2007

wonder what happened to winter?

It's been raining on and off all day. It's grey, its murky, but it is warm.
It is a sweater day.
I am wearing my cozy green zip up.

I'm touring around, getting some school work done, gonna go to the pool too.
I'm easily distracted today.
Watching people walk by makes being productive difficult.

I feel better, maybe a little mellow but better. Not as desperate and hopeless.

Snow. That is what is missing from this picture.
The slimy looking mud, puddles, dead leaves and half green grass... are all lacking the magic of snow. The twinkling like little stars on earth when the moon or a good white street light hit the crystals. That's winter, what it is all about. It softens all the hard, imposing lines of the buildings, walls, even the trees with their pointy-ended branches.

I am ready for winter.
I like the temperature today, but I am really ready for winter.

When I get home tonight it can snow. (even if it doesn't want to).